It's amazing what a bit of alcohol can do for the head. Made me forget so many things. Just crashed into a mattress and fell asleep. Woke up with a killer hangover and wrote a mail. Don't really know what I wrote but I'm sure it was nice and sweet. Just the way I want it to be. Just the way it should be.

Yet again I have sacrificed myself for her happiness. Yet again I trample my ego for her satisfaction. Yet again I surrender. Yet again she tells me she loves him. Yet again I say you do whatever you feel like. Yet again I tell her I will support her. Yet again I cry.

Why she's doing this to herself I cannot understand. I know what she's doing. Don't know why. But I guess I will stand by her no matter what. Goes with the territory I suppose. Best friends and shit like that.

Wish it could be otherwise. Wish I could tell her what I really think about all of this stupidity. Wish I could give her a piece of my mind. If wishes were horses...