I've been thinking. Have had way too many things going on in my head. Maybe it's the booze working over-time. Maybe it's just the fact that I had a lot to think about and a great deal of time to do the thinking. Which is probably why there's so much going on in this crazy head of mine. Every time I start thinking like this, something goes wrong. This time though I'm going to stay in control.

Ali was right: I am a control freak. I need to be in control of situations that concerned my life. I need to be able to make my own choices. It's unfair when other people can impact your life so seriously by the decisions they make. When you have no say in what they decide, then these decisions shouldn't change your life in any way. In a perfect world, that would be true. In a perfect world, I wouldn't have to worry about what anyone else thinks, feels or does. This is not a perfect world.

"its funny but i dont know wat i want wid the maze in my head"