Xeb's gone! I'm finally in front of a screen typing out these stupid lines that in the long-term will mean nothing and will make no sense even to me in a few days (if not just a few minutes)

Saw a really HOT woman today. She was absolutely incrdible! "Mariam Doe" you are Da Bomb!

meant to write something meaningful here today but my mind has suddenly gone blank. Probably has something to do with the severe lack of sleep I'm currently experiencing. Just hit 37 hours. Should sleep. Whatever!

Sometimes It's just better to leave things inside of you instead of telling people about them. The more people who know about what's inside me, the more insecure I become about everything in life. I keep telling myself I won't tell anyone else but I end up talking my heart out to everyone! It's a stupidly ridiculous feeling realizing that you've (yet again) poured out your heart to some one who probably doesn't give a shit about it anyway. I've been talking too much and to all the wrong people. I need some stability back in my life and the only way I'm going to find it is to return to my normal block-out routine. Sorry folks, you're really not gonna get any more confessions of deep, dark secrets from me.

I wish it were just easier being who you are. All I know these days is that I'm not who I want to be. Whether or not I want to be who I am (or vicé versa) is obviously redundant. Now I've just gone and confused myself some more. I hate it when I whine!