"lightening Crashes" playing in my head right now. somehow, that song seems to get right down to the core of my soul (or wateva it is you like to call it) there's a pain in it that just swallows me up, chews on me to turn me raw and then spits me back out into the blinding light. to myself i sound like a wannabe-intellectual trying very hard to find 'hidden meaning' behind the words. honestly though, it's less about the words and more about the music. it haunts me. which is why I call it one of my "Ghost Songs". now that it's in my head, i'll constantly be humming it. i'll wake up in the morning to the tune. i'll work all day with the music guiding my every move. i'll just be possesed by it for as long as it stays put.

this is all Cecil's fault in a way. he was sitting here strumming on Taha's guitar. he hit sum chords and the song just 'popped' in. he wasn't even really playing that song. i guess that's what ghost songs do!

once it leaves, it'll leave behind a happiness-sucking-vacuum and i'll descend into a horribly depressed mood.

maybe, i'm just masochistic, but i can't wait!

I can feel it......